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| This is my quiet place. I arrive to work early, eat breakfast and read my daily bible app here. I love this place. It's a little courtyard just outside the hospital cafeteria. |
I've been listening to the audio book version of "The Martian" so I currently think of almost everything in space survival terms. This will last until I'm done with the audio book at which time I will start listening to another audio book and will then begin using terms and phrasing that are completely relevant to that story, but no one else will have any context whatsoever and will thereby find me either pleasantly quirky or hopelessly annoying and confusing.
But I really do need help. The last two days have been abject failures. Amazon is tempting me with all that good stuff, you know like Scifi-movie memorabilia campaign patches, Blue Ray DVD's, science fiction novels and obscure musical instruments.
It really is like a drug. I'm mostly keeping my distance, but the draw is terrible. I can white-knuckle through it, but I have moments of weakness. I'm weak people! I'm weak!
And I ate a snickerdoodle (thanks honey for making SUCH RIDICULOUSLY DELICIOUS UNHEALTHY DESSERTS!). Bad.
I was able to stave off multiple offers for alcoholic drinks, though. Good.
I was able to remain physical-ish. Definitely not active enough. Okay, I've been a bum after I get home from work ever since Thursday. Bad.
Shoot, I'm tired though. Seriously, I've done 24 surgeries just this week. I haven't worked less than a 10 hour day since Monday and I had to go in for another surgery this morning. THAT didn't go so well. But I'm home now and I'm trying to recuperate.
I mostly just lounged, did a a few 'round-the-house chores, but mostly just lounged and did the unthinkable after I got back from my very early morning surger: I spent time on Facebook. Quite a bit of time on Facebook actually. Very bad.
It was never my intention, but it was mindless activity and there are so many great new viral videos out. I watched this one where a cat is attacking it's reflection in a mirror, then in one final attempt to END the cat in the mirror's life gets a running start and looks like it might have kind of knocked itself out for a second! HAHA! Furry little idiot! What adorable, stupid animals they are!
Oh and you need to watch Cincinnati Police Departments Running Man Challenge video. These guys KILLED IT!
Anyway, as I said before, the last two days have been an abject failure in consumerism detox. I'm also noticing that if one domino starts to fall, they all come tumbling down. It's starting to feel like it's all connected. My desire for sugar, buying stuff online, social media, being lazy... It all started because of mental exhaustion, not that I think that's a viable excuse, but I realize that being tired is my trigger. I had actually thought at one time that my trigger was just the beer that I had after work everyday, and it seemed to be a reasonable hypothesis, and may still be, but I'm working hard to identify my other blind spots.
Yep, being tired is a blind spot. Need to think about this and find a way to address it to prevent future falls from the wagon.
I think tomorrow after church I'm going to get to work on the novel I've been writing. It's fun. A space western. Not very good, but my kids sure enjoy the periodic installments I write for it.
Also, I had deleted Pokemon Go from my phone the day after I downloaded it (you remember, to go on a Pokemon hunt with the kids) because I thought that it was sort of un-masculine or something. Then I thought about it some more and "Well, that ship sailed years ago. Come on kids, lets go find some cute cartoon animals with menacing scowls hiding in the neighbor's hedges!"
Any suggestions to help me when I hit that mental exhaustion wall? I need a means to combat this. Thanks!
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